2 chemo cycles ago, the steroids they give me with my chemo in office made me constipated, which incidentally led to the first hemorrhoid I've ever had in my life. also pretty sure I have anal fissures because it feels like shards of glass every time I poop. I absolutely dread going to the bathroom now, and regularly use prep h and anusol. unfortunately, I have 1/2 a colon so I go to the bathroom more often than most people. I am so depressed because it feels like I just can't catch a break. not only am I fighting cancer and dealing with the awful side effects of chemo, but for the past few weeks going number 2 has been agony. I'm afraid one of these times when I go to the bathroom, I am just going to faint from the pain. I've never experienced anything like this in my life. has anyone else ever had this problem? does anyone have any advice? this is literally ruining my life. I almost want it to end just so I can be free of the pain and subsequent sadness this is causing me.