Hi all, 

I need help. My partner was diagnosed with thyroid cancer last year and despite having his thyroid removed and radiotherapy he feels worse than ever. 
his depression is so bad he locks himself away from me and my kids (he's a step dad, and a very good one) but has suicidal thoughts and some days can't see anything positive in life. 
we have always had a slightly volatile relationship and it feels like it's always one bad thing after another. To add insult to injury he watched his best friend die of a brain tumour just a few years before we met. 
he's an amazing guy, he tries so hard - his meds mean he is on a constant rollercoaster and one minute can be happy and the next he wants to kill himself. 
mom trying so hard to help him, and feel like I'm failing him every step of the way, no matter what I do something or someone comes out the blue and knocks him sideways and he can't deal with it rationally because of his meds. 
please someone give me some advice, I'll do anything to make him feel better - I just need to know what to do! 
 

thank you.