I hear what youre saying and my heart goes out to you, Im going through the same sending love and hugs to you ♥ 

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I am so sorry for what you are going through.  Watching your father going through so much and knowing that he is not going to benefit from his fight by having a long happy life to show for it.  He is obviously a strong fighter but it is hard for his loved ones to watch what he is going through.

Losing a parent is always an awful shock to the system - we know it is going to happen one day and that we cannot choose the means of their passing.  But still it is not something for which we can adequately prepare.    Whenever that day comes you willl know that you have helped him throughout his illness and that the love between you will never be forgotten.  Make the most of the time you still have and don't look too far forward now.

When my dad died (my mother had died some years earlier) I felt bereft and scared even though I was in my forties by then.  Losing a parent is not something for which life prepares you in any way but over time you begin to come to terms with the new situation and look back with a smile and loving memories.