My husband has lived with CLL for the last 16 years. After various courses of chemo over the years he has just started on a new course which quite frankly is the last option for him. After round 1 he got neutropenic sepsis and fortunately recovered quickly. The problem now is that I am petrified of the same thing happening on every round and this is making me incredibly anxious. He gets annoyed when I keep asking him if he is alright!! I just seem to be in a nervous, anxious state all the time.