looking for reassurance from anyone who is going through the same as me. I am a 21 year old female and am having really aggressive health anxiety. Standing in front of the mirror or in the shower checking my body for lumps every 2-3 days. I recently contracted an ear infection due to a feeling of pulse in my ear. My gp reckons I gave myself the ear infection due to constantly keeping at my ear and putting my finger inside my ear (ew I know) to reassure myself. I am now on an antibiotic but don't feel at ease at all. A lump has now appeared at the back of neck behind the opposite ear. I know it has just appeared because I don't miss these things because of my extreme paranoia about my health. Dr. google has told me that ear infections can cause lymph nodes to swell at the back of the neck and I've also read that extreme stress and anxiety can cause swollen lymph nodes.
but then I get to the dreaded articles of lymphoma. I am terrified that this may be what is wrong with me. I am writing to find reassurance or maybe somebody who is experiencing what I'm experiencing. I find currently with the pandemic and also being out of work I have a lot of time to worry about my health which is causing muscle tension and headaches which isn't helping with my health anxiety if anything it is just making it worse.
i hope somebody reaches out soon, thank you.