I am a 29 year old woman and I have suffered health anxiety since I was 11 year old when I found a lump in my jawline sitting in maths class. I remember the day like it was yesterday and was too terrified to tell my parents or go to the doctors so kept the agonising secret to myself for years and years which  I feel robbed me of my childhood as it consumed me day in day out terrified that I had cancer and was going to die. Fast forward 18 years and I now know that it will of just been a lymphnode but I am still absolutely terrified of having or getting cancer. This is the only disease that terrifies the life out of me. It doesn't help that all we hear in the news lately is about cancer and cancer story lines on television terrify me that much I can't watch them. I'm currently experiencing pains in the left side of my neck with a tightness feeling and tingling sensations in the leftside of my face/top jaw. I have been to the doctors 4 times in the last 4week where I have been diagnosed differently every time. I.e. muscular pain, ear ache, and ear infections. After 7 days of antibiotics the pain is still there and after my last visit to the doctor today where I broke down in tears due to the stress/worry of it all she has diagnosed me with health anxiety and also sent me for blood tests to check my white bloodcells to try and put my mind at rest as she can't find anything wrong after a full examination. The anxiety is awful and even more so that I can't bring myself to tell any of my family how bad I actually am as I am always the strong minded one who doesn't show emotion. I have a 3 year old boy and it's affecting the time I spend with him as I am constantly panicking about my own health and focusing on my symptoms. I end up feeling so guilty when I cant be happy with him :-(

Does anyone relate?? Or have any advice or books/websites i can read that might help?! 

Thanks