So lately I've been really struggling with the loss of my mum, though she passed away over 5 years ago now just before I turned 15. Things always get so hard around Christmas as it was her favourite time of year, I still love Christmas but it's so difficult even hearing certain songs or planning things I wish she was still here for. It's also her birthday in a few weeks.
I'm living away at uni and its quite hard talking to my friends about it because they think by avoiding anything Christmas related all together that everything will be fine and I know they're only trying to help but it makes things even harder as it's just masking everything I'm going to feel anyway. It's difficult for them to understand.
I don't really have a close relationship with anyone in my family either so it's very lonely.
I feel like I just needed somewhere to write about it & see if anyone feels the same & if there's anthing you do around this time or certain times of year to make things easier. X