Sorry to hear about your mum I think she would want you to continue your college and  make something of yourself I know thats what I,d want for my daughter if I was in that position.

My mum has pancreatic cancer and it just feels like a bug dream and it is a lot to take in.

Hiya Olivia

Give yousrlf time take care of yourself be selfish if you have to work through your grief the best way for you and if this means you defer college for a few weeks or months so long as you've done whats best for you at your speed .Im sure you mum will be proud od your achievements. 

I know the oxygen and tubes can be scarey but just think of them as tools helping your mum and keeping her comfortable . You are stronger than you think.

Christmas and Birthdays will be hard noone can change that but you can make new traditions and include mums memories in this but remember You are important remember to eat and take care of yourself check your mental health regularly and take time out when you need too.

This is what Id say tio my daughters remember your loved xx

I’m so sorry about your mum but your mum would have wanted you to carry on with college do it for your lovely mum and take care of yourself lv annie x