Good Evening Sue, I am so sorry you having to go through this again so quickly after losing your sister and I feel your pain. Keep your chin and be positive with them everytime you see them as that does give them a little spark and sometimes a smile. I am visiting my Dad everyday who has secondary cancer and is now back in the hospice it is tiring as I have a very busy working life and I can't just take time off as I am self employed unfortunately which puts extra pressure on me. I do what I can to keep Dads spirits high but when I leave and are at home I just like you burst into tears as it is so draining but I can't not go even tho I don't always won't to be there as it is so hard, somehow you just find an inner strength. Dad is in a lot of pain with him at tummy which makes him anxious so they dose him up and I cant make a lot of sense out him. But what I don't understand is the cancer was in his throat and now the secondary is in his lungs, so why is he in so much pain with his tummy. Due to the pain he does not want to eat, he can't go to the toilet, just don't know if it is the cancer or not. Anyway we need to keep our chins up and shine Sue as hard as it is, best wishes Emma x