Hi I know it's strange it can take years to ease the pain but you never really forget them they will always be there in your heart you will think about them every now and then it does ease with time but they will always be there somewhere in your thoughts, I still think think of my mother and father, my brother and others I've known (I lost them over 30 years ago) they are still in my thoughts though you will remember the good and the bad the good will make you smile the bad will break your heart again. Look at your self. Good luck best wishes for the future.

Billy 

Hi Taurus86

Sorry to hear about your mum.

I know that feeling of going back to work I had it last week going back for the first day after losing my sister on the 3rd March. Felt like I was going for my first day, had a sleepless night, woke up feeling scared, anxious and knowing it wasn't the right decision to be going back so soon but had to. 

Some days it's good being in work takes your mind off things if only for a little while. I feel quite numb when I'm.in work like my head doesn't let me.think about what's happened and then I let it all out when I get home. I also feel very guilty being back at work like acting normal when I feel I shouldn't be.

Every day will be different for you.

Thinking of you 

 Xx

Lost my Mam 21st Jan suddenly. 5 days before I lost my business. I’ve fought tooth & nail to claim but wasting my time & just makes me feel worse. I have job lined up but waiting for my criminal checks to be done. I would have been ready to start, but longer it takes the more depressed I feel. Take care