Hi,
I was just after a bit of advice really as it's the first Christmas I'm going through without my wife and I was wondering how others have handled this time of year?
I lost my beautiful wife to metastatic breast cancer at the end of November and the funeral was on Friday the 21st Dec, so it is still all very raw. Even though I knew she was very ill and the possibility of losing her was always on the back burner, I never expected her to pass away when she did. I feel like I've been smashed sideways by a wrecking ball in full swing, it's awful. We've got two teenage kids & they too have been hit hard.
I'm really struggling with the mental torment that it puts us through, and it is made even worse by knowing that my wife would be so upset if she could see how we feel, bless her!
I thought I could handle it if things got bad, but never in a million years did I think I'd feel so emotional, it's so exhausting with the constant breakdowns and lack of sleep, plus my teeth ache like mad where I've been gritting them together. I miss her terribly.
I'm having counselling in the new year, as I think I need some guidance to help me stop feeling so low. I've never been a fan of counselling, but I hope it helps me.
Any other advice would be very much appreciated.
Thank you,
James.