Hi Maisie,

Welcome to this friendly forum. That is why this site exists so that you can offload your feeling and fears on here to people who know exactly what you are going through. I think we all feel helpless as in real terms there is nothing we can do medically speaking to stop this evil called cancer. All we can do is exactly what you are trying your best to do and that is all anyone can do. It's so hard seing someone you love slowly fading away. I hope others will come along soon to offer support.

Please keep in contact. Sending best wishes and kind thoughts your way, Brian.

Hi Maisie

I'm so sorry you are struggling to cope with everything at the moment. Have you asked your mum why dad prefers not to come to you for Sunday lunch now? Perhaps it is because he doesn't want to burden you further or see you upset as his disease progresses? Sometimes our loved ones just don't want to trouble us with their illness and symptoms and actually forget that just because they aren't physically present doesn't mean we won't be worried about them.  

Getting on with your life in the way you used to probably isn't possible during this time of extra worry. Be kind to yourself and know that it's ok for your normal routine to be disrupted a little. 

I'm sure most of your friends will be very supportive and understand that you need their friendship right now but it can sometimes be difficult for them to understand exactly how you feel if they haven't been in a similar situation. 

As the lovely Brian says you can come here to offload.  To vent and complain or whatever you need to do. We are a friendly bunch and sadly we do know what you're going through and how you feel 

Netty

Dear Masie

The way you are feeling is perfectly normal and experienced by just about everyone who has had a friend or relative with cancer - do not ever feel ashamed or concerned about having these feelings, cancer is a terrible terrible illness and pushes us all to our limits. 

As has been said by the lovely people before me, you can always come to this forum and say what ever is on your mind in the certain knowledge that you will be amongst people who KNOW how you feel

Best wishes

Derek