mum gave me “the talk “ at the weekend telling me how she wants her funeral who to tell and who gets what 

Ive stayed so strong Going to all her appointments and taking care of her but this has thrown me yes I knew it was coming but it’s killed me inside 

it’s been a tough year the chemo was stopped as it made her so ill and she’s just started immunotherapy basically for symptom control as mum has cancer in both lungs the lymph nodes in chest and shoulder also has copd 

everyone says to look after myself but that’s easy for them to say I even tried the Macmillan chat and she told me to talk to family or friends .... not going to happen 

feeling pretty alone just now and I can’t even tell mum how I really feel as when I tried to tell my friends they thought I was being selfish