I mostly feel angry with my boyfriend. He was great when my mom got sick, and she went so fast it was completely overwhelming and I was consumed by sadness and grief. He was there with me. Would just sit with me, put his arm around me and comfort me while I bawled my eyes out. Or he'd get me out of the house, and take me for an ice cream.

My mom has now been gone for exactly one month, and I think my boyfriend thinks that everything just goes back to normal. He's resumed his usual routines and no longer even asks me if I'm ok. I think he thinks that grief has a time limit, and that I've exceeded mine. When I start crying, he no longer comes over and comforts me, he just says "awwww". I no longer feel comfortable crying in front of him, and now have to go back to crying alone.

He's never lost anyone close to him before. I know that before I lost my mom, I couldn't really feel a strong level of empathy for people who had lost parents. I felt very sorry for them, don't get me wrong. But losing one yourself is completely different. It's soul crushing. 

So I guess I just kind of feel angry at him. Or maybe I'm just so angry that the world took my mother away from me that I have to get mad at someone, and he's right here. So I snap at him over small things. I have zero tolerance for anything and just get mad quickly. It's not very nice. And he doesn't deserve it. And I'm not really like that usually. 

Is it normal to lash out on the people we love after losing someone we were so close to?