My husband was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer and liver mets in January. He's recently had a complete pelvic exenteration but still has the mets in his liver. I know how you feel. Life is just cancer now. Every time I look at him I can't stop thinking how life can go on without him in it. Try to put it to back of your mind as impossible as it may seem. It's only way.

I am in the same position and i cant bare this - I love my 50 year old husband who is the person i adore and can not envisage being here with out him - he has stage 4 lung cancer - and has gone from strong party academic to a vunerable but very strong person facing hell. we are awaiting the date of the chemo and i am struggling as i dont want to spoil and bring him down with my sadness- as this feels unfair but its a minute to minute struggle. We are trying to do normal and socail things and he wants to see people and this gives comfort but then i fear he is using his energy. We managed to go away fro a few days by ourselves and this was helpful. I wish you strenght and i hope in time we will get some of others strenght on here-  please look aftwer yourselves - take care Tracey xxx