Good evening. I feel like this is the most surealist thing ever. The last 3 months have been absolutely crazy.
On the 9th of March I was rushed in for emergency surgery to remove a large cyst from my left ovary- my ovary had twisted which caused me serious pain. At the same time I was in hospital my Mum was also in hospital-Mum had had a stroke last year and was declining in health- she wasn't eating or drinking. My operation went well-longer than anticipated as the cyst had kind of attached itself to my bowel but all went as expected. I stayed in hospital for 4 days and was discharged. Mum was still in hospital but then got discharged to her care home as she was medically fit. I went away the following weekend for my birthday-an escape and to be totally spoilt and not do a thing. Was bliss! Came back from that to find out there were concerns regarding mum and a meeting was to be held on the Monday. Mum was refusing to eat and drink again. That Monday it was decided to respect Mum's wishes and she was so poorly was put on end of life care. My beautiful Mum died on the 3rd April.
Five days later I had an appt to see my consultant which I assumed was to check on how I was healing etc from my operation. I was informed that I had ovarian cancer. mucinous cystadenocarcinoma. I was in shock. All I remember saying was "my mum died on Wednesday" everything else was a blur... fast forward to appts/ mum's funeral/mri scans it all was so surreal. On the 29th May I was booked in to have surgery. They removed the following- Uterus, Cervix, ovary, fallopian tube, omentum, appendix and lymph glands from my groin. They explored my abdomen and bowel whilst I was under too. I spent 8 days on the high dependency ward as I was fighting an infection, had fluid on my lungs and a suspected dvt- I don't do things by halves. They sent me for countless scans CAT scan/ultrasound and xrays. It has been such a scary time.
Yesterday I went to my gps as I had an appt with the nurse to remove my staples-67 of the delightful things... took over 45mins as some were very difficult to remove. I am now waiting for an appt to see my consultant to find out what happens next. This all feels surreal and as though I'm on the outside looking in. I'm very scared at the moment.
