Hello,
I was diagnosed 3 weeks ago now. Grade 2 ductal carcinoma and Higher Grade DCIS. Tumour is 30mm and currently awaiting surgery which is booked for 2nd November unless they can get me in sooner.
I'm finding that I'm very up and down emotionally and with my thoughts. I've had days where I'm doing really well and can just get on with it, then other days (today being one) where I just struggle to get a grip, and feel totally exhausted!
Then there's the guilt, guilt that my kids are worried about me, my parents are anxious, my husband is worried, work is busy and me having time off is not convenient (I know this one is ridiculous but I can't help it). How does everyone else cope? I feel that because they've told me it's treatable that I shouldn't feel like this? But it's cancer! And until its out and they tell me I'm all clear I can't relax.
Friends/Family telling me how strong I am as words of support but in actual fact I feel like I'm on the verge of crumbling.
I'm just so tired but have to keep going for everyone else.
Sorry this is a ramble just feel like I can let it out here.
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