Hi Limesbaby You will be going through all sorts of emotions right now. Your rush to go back to work is understandable as its part of getting back to "normal" which is where you want to be. Could you have a word and see if you could go back for a few hours to begin with. As to the five years that's how long they monitor you for these days so all the statistics are based on what happens to people over that five year period. Statistics are not fact but they are based on information and they are the best guess given that information. Best advice, try not to worry concentrate on getting your strength back and taking back control of your life. river