My Dad passed away in February after a 3 year battle with cancer. He had a terminal diagnosis, however, there was no signposting that he was towards end of life and deteriorated so suddenly in a number of days; so I didn't really have time to prepare for him to die so soon.
I'm 20 and his death is the biggest loss that I've faced so far in my life. I'm at university working in hospital and I'm finding it really difficult to process that he is no longer in my life and that he won't be there for major events in my life like my graduation, wedding and children etc.
I'm busy with uni work but I find myself thinking about him during the day and then I find myself feeling really upset. It might sound stupid but I keep thinking that I don't want to do things without him but I know that I have to continue and live for him.
I haven't used this forum before, so I'm not really sure what to expect but was hoping that maybe someone who has gone through something similiar has any advice for dealing with death.