Hello Darcus30.  I am so sorry to learn of the death of your dad.  Yes, the feelings you describe are totally okay.  Nor everyone reacts in the same way; some cry, some bottle things up; there is no single means of mourning.    It is still very early days so just take thinss as they come.  I think it helps to share your feelings with your family members but again some people have difficulty in doing this.  There is no right or wrong in this situation (unless of course you actuallty harm yourself which although depressed you don't seem to be doing).  Life will not be the same again - your dad has been with you for your entire life and of course it is going to be very different; now he lives on in your heart and mind.    It is a continuing sorrow - but as we go through life this is what happens - different situations, loss of loved ones all make up part of who we are and - honestly - one day but not yet for you - you will smile when you think about your dad.  Funerals can be difficult but many people feel it gives a kind of recognising what has happened.  Can loved ones see us when they pass?  Everyone will give you a different answer.  Personally I don't think that this is the case but if you want to see a clairvoyant be very careful as many people going under that heading are very skilled at getting information from you and using it to try to show they have some proof that you are seeking.  Your dad will always be with you - I still "talk" to my deceased parents and they live firmly in me as my life goes on.    Life will go on - at first  you feel dammit how can it go on - but take time and be kind to yourself.  Annie

Hi Mark, 

I'm really sorry for your loss. 

It's truly the worse imaginable feeling. Nothing seems right or makes sense. I personally found the few days leading up to my Dads funeral just utterly awful and I felt so depressed sad angry and everything else. I then found the next few days very blank and nothingey. I think the days have possibly got just a fraction better since. Like 1mm better.

It's only been 2 weeks and I have utter meltdowns at times and just wonder how I'm meant to carry on but very slowly you just put one foot in front of the other and somehow keep going..I guess there isn't really another option right. 

So many thoughts now enter my head too, will I see him again..where is he? What else will life throw at me? It's scary and no I don't think we will ever be quite the same but I suppose we have to live our lives as happily as we can and hold our loved ones in our heart at all times. 

Thinking of you. 

Rosie 

Hello Darcus.

Very sorry for your loss.  I lost My Mum very recently and feel the same  feelings and I am asking the same questions as you.  I hope it gets easier sometime; plenty on here say it does but how long that takes I am sure will  vary from one person to another. 

I too, was dreading the funeral and, after a visit to my GP, was given some pills which helped me cope with it. Perhaps this would help you. 

As for any form of contact with deceased loved ones, well, I would love to believe that is possible. It is something I may look into.  In the meantime, I am waiting to see a counsellor and I am putting a lot of hope in this regarding coping. Again, perhaps this may help you. But, of course you must have the funeral first and I hope you can get some help off your GP and family and friends to cope with it.

Sincere condolences