Hi all, I'm Garf and I lost my Dad to lung cancer three months ago.
I absolutely worshipped my Dad and I can't shake this constant feeling of being a little boy again who is lost and homesick. I am sure it will get better in time but right now it is very difficult, especially with the prospect of scattering his ashes at sea in a few days.
I also lost my Grandmother to breast cancer, my Mum fortunately is recovering from breast cancer as is my step-mother (for the third time), my Aunty has bowel cancer and is undergoing treatment at the moment but it may only be a matter of time. My wife also had cervical cancer but has completely recovered and a man I worked seven years for and who became a good friend died of cancer eighteen months ago, so I guess we could say that cancer has affected my life quite a lot.
After Dad's operation to have his lung removed and the treatment he received afterwards I became a blood donor after discovering how much blood was used for his surgery and later transfusions. I am also setting up a direct debit to give money to Cancer Research but I still want to do more so I thought of Race for Life. I have to admit to being extremely dissapointed that I am not allowed to race because of my gender and I am trying not to pass judgement although that is difficult at the moment with my emotions being so high right now. I know other men say that they go to these events to support loved ones racing and they don't have a problem with it but I can't not feel like, because of my gender my loss is seen as inadequate in some way. Again that may just be the way I feel at the moment.
Sorry to bore people I will shut up now.