Hi baby45

Im waiting for a consultant apt for a different type of issue to you just now but in March this year I had my gallbladder out - after ten years of problems and being fobbed off. There were never gallstones when I was scanned so I was always told not gallbladder. I was given buscopan so many times and even told it was in my head..  but I ended so down and in agony over the summer of 2019 and had to beg for an endoscopy. Got that and was told only thing was small inflammation at the duodenum. Consultant said nothing wrong but gp pushed back and I eventually got a Hilda scan that showed my gallbladder wasn't functioning. Then they agreed to take it out. So in short keep pushing for some answers.  And I really understand how your feeling right now. it's the most horrendous range of emotions. Xxx

Thank you. I hope you get sorted too. 
i keep  thinking of all the things it could be that would not be as awful as pancreatic cancer but all of my symptoms keep taking me back to that. Haven't slept all night with my back. 
just need to know 

No sleep here either for days. Which obviously makes us feel even worse. I'm the same, husband saying it could be anything but my body is telling me it is. Two weeks ago I felt fine. Now it's like I'm ticking off the symptoms (cervical cancer). 
i hipe you manage to get your scan chased up today. 
x

Bless you. The hospital just called the consultant has finally sent request for scan through. They are just checking it over and going to call me with slot. I hope you get your appointment sorted too. 

Got my ct scan for tomorrow.

sooz77 any news on your appointment? 

I'm petrified as I'm getting results of CT scan tomorrow. Worse thing is the consultant is only doing zoom appointments as he is still shielding himself. I challenged his secretary and said but I think my results will be bad she just said unfortunately regardless of outcome of results he will only do zoom. How awful. 
I'm so scared as I know deep down that the outcome will be bad as my symptoms continue and are actually worsening. I also now have buzzing in my head which I am guessing is anxiety related to the results but it's driving me insane. I also possibly sound like a nutter but not long after my baby was born I woke up in the middle of the night really upset, I'd had some sort of dream or premonition that I would not get to see him grow up. Was that my body warning me something was wrong? Did anybody else have this? 
Unfortunately this led me to thinking I just had some sort of anxiety after the baby and followed that route when really deep down I knew it wasn't anxiety and that there was something seriously wrong. Oh and finally I keep getting one magpie in my garden every morning just sitting staring at me!

sorry for going on but I can only get all of this out of my head on here as I can't keep upsetting my family with my crying.  I do appreciate though that for people who are diagnosed themselves or are looking after people with cancer this post might be frustrating.