Hi,
My name in Jamie, and my dad has cancer. Around xmas time last year he was told he had Lung cancer (which has now been determined to be from asbestosis). He is 61. In February he was given a lobectamy that was advised to be successful. About 6-8 weeks ago, He called me in a lot of pain and couldn’t breath. I tool him to the hospital and after a couple of days were given the enevitable news the cancer was back. Spreading into his liver and his bones. We were told at that point this was non curative. When I asked “do we mean terminal” I was told well this will kill him.
It was decided that a regiment of 4 chemo sessions spread 3 weeks apart would be started. He had lost roughly 3 stone in weight in a short space of time before flowing also. The chemo started 3 weeks ago this Thursday and although it was very good on the day, the next day and week following floored him. It was decided that he would go into the Marie Cuire hospice for a bit of respite. He went in the following Tuesday and remained there for the best part of 2 weeks, returning home on Friday. Yesterday I talked with his, as he calls her “Cancer Nurse” and she advised me that he is no longer strong enough for chemo and it may do him more harm than good, so all Chemo is cancelled. I asked if we are now moving to palative care, which was replied to with yes. I wasn’t given any time frames and still haven’t at this point.
When I spoke to my dad he was quite casual about it and besically said “good, I think thats wat made me tired anyway. As long as I can manage to keep eating and keep my strength up I think I will be okay” I am a little concerned he isnt aware of the gravity of this, as from what I understand, ‘last roll of the dice’ as it were to have any fight, even to just slow down would be the chemo. He has made comments leading me to think he believes he has years left, which is concerning me that he might not be at a level of understanding of whats happening. Let me add he isnt exactly the most educated man in the world and he didnt have a clue what Pallative Care was.
I am a bit worried that although I dont want to be the harbinger of doom and also have him just become a defeated and morbid Just of a human being, I think he needs to know and really understand what this means. We have Marie Curie nurses almost daily and, but they try to talk to him and he is the type of guy who is constantly interrupting with a silly anicdote or joke and I can really see (as I have for 36 years of my life) that he isnt really listening or taking things in and just more interested in showing his funny side, or his apparent knowledge or understanding. Ego is a nightmare around my dad.
So I’m having trouble with it all as you can imagine. Concern is around how much time my dad has left. I really need to know this. In peoples experience, when would they be in a position to tell us this? Or is it a case of wait and see sometimes?
Thanks for taking time top read,
Jamie