Hello Rosey.  If I could invent a way of curing anxiety I would have made a fortune years ago.  Sadly I cannot even cope with my own anxieties which are much less than yours.  Things are so much worse in the wee small hours of the night aren't they.  Talk to anyone sympathetic amongst family and friends who would try to help you - I am not always sure why I find it difficult to do this myself but I do make myself and it is usually a good thing to do.  It is true (for me anyway) that worries get worse as they go round and round in your own head.  What do you like to do  Is there music that can calm you?  Going out for a walk? 

You mention that you were waiting to see your GP - can s/he not prescribe anything appropriate?  Also if you would like to talk to someone knowledgeable about your situation try ringing MacMillan Nurses (Freefone 0808 808 00 00).  Others people on this forum have found them good to talk to.

Would love to wave a magic wand to cure anxiety!  Feel free to post here though if it helps - as often as you want.

Thank you so much for replying to my post. My GP was so good today and have been prescribed some appropriate medicine. Here is hoping I get through this bad patch .Thank you again for your valuable feedback !

Hi Rosey,

I'm not by nature an anxious person but living with my own incurable cancer knocked me for six. It became normal not to get to sleep till well after 2am. I eventually admitted I had a problem and saw my GP too. I hope your GP helps sort you out. 

We've reset our expectations for Christmas and now just do what we want, not what we think other people think we should do! Most people spend, eat and drink too much at Christmas ... we've now cut back on the first two ;-)

Being busy helps too :-) Christmas can be a royal pain even without cancer - luck after yourself and try to chill out.

Good luck 

Dave

Thank you also for your kind words also. I was planned to go to my daughters this Xmas but now am staying at home with just my husband. I just wanted to be in my own home Felt bad that I am not going and she understood my logic behind it all . I am going to see my only grandson who is 1 and a half as much as possible between Xmas and the new year. Guess what sleep better last night Just me husband woke me up saying I been snoring Lol x

Pardon me for laughing but it is great that you were snoring - it meant you were having a decent sleep.  I think you are very wise to go with what your own feelings tell you for Christmas; we worry about upsetting family and friends but most of the people we care for are very understanding and want you to do what feels best for you.  Your grandson should cheer you up.  Little children are lovely.  Don't overthink things (easier said than done, as I know) but do the things you enjoy and try not to bottle up your feelings.  I know it is easy to give advice but not always so easy to take it but you sound like such a nice lady and I hope you get your anxieties under control.

It’s Xmas Eve I am back on again ! Sleep a bit better it’s a 6 am wake now. Afraid I had to access my GP again before Xmas Day.I just come up with this feeling of being a burden to my family. It will be quiet Xmas with just my husband but no doubt my daughter will send me videos of my lovely grandson. I think I need to access Mind or somewhere that can help me in the New Year as I can’t be depending on tablets as they just act as a sticking plaster over things. My oncologist give a 2 week chemo holiday now but got to have scan on 5th of Jan so that’s not helping me the way I feel. Thank you for whoever is reading this I just want to find some inner peace. X

I do hope you find some peace and have a good Christmas.  I am betting - from what you have written about your situation - that you are nothing like a burden to your family but I know how fears can gnaw away at us. Do whatever it takes to make you feel better; ask yourself what you would enjoy doing and do it.  No time to put things off - no time like the present.  I think it is a good idea to talk to organisatins who can help you understand what you are going through - I am told that MacMillan nurses are also good.  I have to say that I have not spoken to them myself but when people I have known and loved have died from cancer they were very helpful to them and their carers.  They don't have to move in and take over - they are happy just to talk with you.

I so much hope you will be telling us that you have had a good Christmas and are finding a way to be more at peace within yourself.