Hello,

I'm really hurting right now and thought I'd reach out. My friend John was just diagnosed with terminal 4th stage liver cancer. The doctor gave him about 4 months to live, with chemo it might add a few more months. John has chosen chemo but I doubt he'll even be well enough to get there. 

I've only known John for about 3 years and we are just good friends. He lives on the same floor as I do, in a building I moved into a few years ago. We hang out together and at the beginning of the pandemic, we went into a bubble to help each other. I saw him every day this past year. He started feeling sick a few months ago and after 3 trips to the ER, he was diagnosed. 

I am crushed. His daughters and I have formed a team to keep him home and we have nurses coming in. I pop in about 6 times a day to make sure he takes his meds, eats something and is okay. I sit with him every day in the evening and we watch TV together.

My heart is broken. It was like one day we were enjoying drives together and the next, he is sleeping all day. I hate to sound so selfish, but I also lost my whole pandemic bubble. 

His daughters are dropping in every day. I'm in Canada and we have a mask rule and one of the daughters always pulls down her mask when she talks - which scares me. I don't want to get covid. 

I'm just so sad. My friend is on morphine and sleeps most of the day and night. I'm just really hurting. 

Thanks for listening. 

Sue