Hi

Yes, I remember being at this stage.  It certainly is a roller coaster, one minute I was O.k the next I was down.  I remember when I was anxious I would take a walk, and arrange to meet friends, this helped.  I found it helpful to arrange nice things for when I was feeling well.  After the second chemo, I would think well after this one I would be half way through, and after the fourth I only have two left.  I went to the Look Good Feel Good sessions at my local centre.  I enjoyed meeting others and learning how to adjust my make up.  This is not easy but worth it.

I am now three years from treatment.  I am very well, and back at work full time.  I am glad I took everything on offer to prevent it from coming back. Although at the moment it feels awful, it is a short time when I look back.  Everything has probably changed for you, and you may still feel very scared, this is understandable.  I think the emotional side of chemo is more difficult than the physical.  My advice would be take one step at a time, and think of each chemo has a hurdle you will get over to reach your goal.  

Take care   Diane xxx

Hi Emily,

Give yourself a break, you've had a lot to cope with in recent weeks and you wouldn't be human if you weren't feeling anxious and/or depressed. 

I was OK physically after the first two or three sessions but the side effects did accumulate over time. After a while, I took some sick leave not because of the side effects but because I was becoming a pain to work with/for as I became far less tolerant of people being lazy idiots at work (I also became more judgemental of others!). 

All you can really do is play it by ear and work if you feel well enough - if only as a way of keeping your mind off things.

Best wishes
Dave   

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