Hi Leigh, I know your worry, you are a few weeks ahead of me.  I found a lump in my armpit a few weeks ago and my hospital appointment for the breast clinic is on Friday. I am a nervous wreck to say the least.  I was reading a moderators post  which mentioned ‘Anxiety UK’ .  I haven’t looked at it yet myself but it could be helpful while you are waiting.  Wishing the very best for your results.

Lyn xx

Hi Lyn

Thanks for replying, it is amazing how stressful it is just to be waiting isn’t it? No matter how much people tell you that statistically 80% of people that get lumps checked and biopsied are cancer free, you still think you are going to be in the smaller percentage. I’ve had added stress that I’ve been getting treated for chronic back pain for 2 years with no clue as to what’s causing the pain....that’s now making my mind work overtime. I’m also undergoing a programme to relieve chronic fatigue, and have found that the meditation recommended on that is helping a bit to keep me sane. I’m using an app called Insight Timer which is free and has lots of guided relaxations. It’s definitely needed at this time because it’s safe to say, waiting on these test results whilst trying to maintain a regular existence (only a couple of people know what’s happening) is extremely difficult. I’m finding it hard to tolerate the everyday mundane things that people moan about. I hope your appointment goes well on Friday and they don’t leave you waiting for too long to get the results.. Let me know how you get on x

Hi Leigh,  I am always worse in the mornings, first think that comes into my head is the lump!  I f I were you the fact the Consultant felt that your lump was most likely innocent would make me feel a lot less anxious.  I will let you know how I get on on Friday.

Lyn xx

Being busy seems to massively help as a distraction .. I have been gardening .. a task to focus on that’s a bit creative 

I try to keep busy AMP, but I can’t seem to concentrate on anything.  I have been away for a week and there will be a lot to do in my garden, especially with all this hot weather so l will have to get out there and maybe it will help. x

Me too, non stop right now, can feel it catching up with me. Going to get some meditation in this afternoon to have a break, it does seem to help a bit with just switching off. Hope you all get a stress free day x

I have found the garden very therapeutic ..  I am not a big gardener usually but there is something good about being outside ..using the energy and noticing nature .. I feel I have forever to wait for results of more tests 8th August and then possibly the op later that month .. it’s a challenge living with not knowing 

Well my appointment is late this afternoon.  Since returning from my holiday on Tuesday, I spent the day at my allotment and as you said being outside took the edge of my anxiety.  Yesterday I had to go to work and it was a terrible struggle, all I was thinking about was today.  I manage a charity shop two days a week and deal with lots of people.  Putting on a normal happy face was so hard I just wanted to get home.  Sod’s law today is my wedding anniversary too!

Lyn x

Thinking of you Lyn, the not knowing is the worst part. I hope it’s good news for you. It was my daughter’s 21st birthday yesterday and I got a call from my consultant 5 minutes before we went out for her birthday dinner to tell me that mine is a benign fibroadenoma. If I had been stood next to him I would’ve kissed the guy. I could get it taken out but I’m leaving well alone, I can definitely live with that! Praying you get similar news. It’s been a godsend having people on here to talk to x 

Oh Leigh, I am so happy for you, and your daughter got the very best 21st birthday present!  You can now draw a line under all the anxiety of the past few weeks and start living again.  Thank you for your prayers and yes it is so helpful talking to people like you.  

Lyn x