I lost my mum in September and really struggling to focus. I just feel totally heartbroken and feel like I'm living in zombie bubble. The first month after she died I felt so strong and went back to work. The first few weeks were fine and I was liking the fact I was getting back into a routine. The support in my work has been amazing but I think I started to feel overwhelmed and it was one last "how are you doing" that seemed to trigger the uncontrollable crying and just not being able to focus on anything. I had a few weeks holiday left and my work have let me take them now. I'm not sure what do with my time off to help me. I tried to get back to normality before by going out driving and making jewellery etc but I think I was just stalling my emotions and this is why I feel so upset now. I have lost interest in almost everything and cancelling friends etc. I just dont want to put my brave face on again. My family are a great support to me but I still feel alone. They are all back at work and although they are heartbroken seem to be finding support from work and able to get back into a routine. 

A x