Hi.
I'm new to this forum, but would like to share my story.
As a Teenage lad growing up back in the 1990s my life was, what I considered, to be tough. I was bullied throughout my whole school life and friends where very hard to come by. Infact once I left school in 1992 I lost contact with any friends I had and spent a good 8 years of my life without a single friend I could turn to.
Throughout this time my mum was my rock. She stood by me through thick and thin, while also putting up with my bullying father.
I had zero confidence and would never dare venture out to try and meet people .
Without going on to much i will just say that in the 2000 my mum pursaded me to go out and get a job at my local Kwik Save super market. I was dreading going there but it turned out to be the best thing i could of done. It was there that I met bot only new friends, but also my now wife.
Things were finally beginning to look up and in july of 2002 my wife and I got married.
I was on top of the world, and life finally felt like it ment something to me. That is until a week later when I returned from honeymoon, to be told my mum was in hospital starting her battle against leukaemia. She had kept it quiet from me so as she could just enjoy our wedding.
I wont go into details but she had a very brave battle but unfortunately she passed away, after picking up an infection, in Jan 2003.
What made it all the harder was my wife was pregnant at the time with our first child, and knowing my mum never got to meet her is crushing.
Of course this was over 16 years ago. But it still feels like yesterday.
My wife and I are still happily married. But there is a massive whole in my life.
I have a father that has only ever supports my younger brother, and has pretty much just handed him the family farm.
I have 2 children of my own now, but my dad just takes zero interest like I know my mum would of done.
I live for my family and do the very best to support them while working on the minimum wage.
I just can never shake this feeling that life would of been so much better, had the one person I loved the most not been taken from me.
Sorry if this is just a bit of a ramble or doesnt make much sense. I just saw this page and thought I'd share .