This coming Tuesday I have a bronchoscopy to further investigate / take sample of areas of 'infection' in my lungs. I am petrified. Not of the procedure itself but of the outcome. I have completely convinced myself I have some form of lung cancer.

I was feeling under the weather a few weeks ago, a sore back a few aches and pains etc and a bit of a cough. I wrote it off to being run down but then I got pains in my chest and went to A&E. They did ECG, bloods and x-ray. The xray showed a patch of infection on my top right lung and my blood infection levels were high at 125. Dr said I had pneumonia and gave me two antibiotics to take. He requested a CT scan to be done as an older xray showed infection in the same area. I took the antibiotics and felt better, however two weeks later I got back pain again and fever and sharp pains in my chest. Went back to A&E and they did tests again. Told me I had pluerisy and to take ibuprofen for it. The pain was awful but only lasted a few days. I had my CT scan 4 days after my pluerisy diagnosis and it showed various patches of infection on both lungs. Dr said he wants the respiratory team to look at it and that's why he is sending me for a bronchoscopy. He said it is to see what is causing the infection as it doesn't seem to be an ordinary type of lung infection. He is confident it is infection however I am not so sure. I feel he is just trying not to worry me. I am 40 and an ex smoker. My children are 1 and 3 years old. I can't bear the thought of this being cancer but I don't feel the signs are looking good. At the moment I feel fine, a slight pain in my shoulders and I am not really coughing anymore either. I suppose I just needed to put all this out here for anyone who is in a similar situation or someone who can reassure me. I feel like I am in limbo. Life just seems to be on hold and I am going through the motions. I have never been so scared in my entire life. Thank you for reading this xxx