Bricking it!

Hi all 

I'm a 44 year old married Mum with an eight year old boy. I went to my GP on 24/1 with a change in breast shape and a lump. Today, 5 weeks after my GP appointment I have finally been seen in the breast clinic. I've had several mammograms, an ultrasound and a biopsy. I was told today it's breast cancer so I'm utterly floored. My head is reeling and I'm panicking. I burst into tears and asked if I was going to die and was told no. What worries me is that I have to wait up to two weeks for my biopsy results for my treatment pathway. I worry about it having affected other parts of my body so how can I not worry about this before the results of my biopsy are known. Extremely worried  

  • hello so sorry you're going through this but you re def not alone, not with your diagnosis or worry...I should think anyone just diagnosed will feel the same, I did, and yes my first thought was its all over for me, but really it's not the case, there so many treatment options, please try and concentrate on today. nothing terrible will happen today. don't think beyond that. I lay awake night after nigh worrying about treatment, prognosis, results and it didn't hurry anything along or change anything.  you will feel soo much better when appointments start getting booked up and you concentrate on next step. I use and comment a bit on the macmillan forum and there it's dedicated into groups breast cancer etc and I learnt everything I needed to know from the posts and concerns and worries and journeys of others. give your son a hug before he gets too big to want one ha ha x

  • Thankyou so much for your lovely reply! I was feeling alright until I got home and was trying to be positive. Now I'm in pain from the biopsies and thinking all sorts of dark and unhelpful thoughts. I'm so grateful you took the time to reply. It really has helped xx

  • Hi there, please be reassured you are not alone. I felt exactly the same although I am older age 57 when I was diagnosed in September 2021 after a clear mammogram I might add.

    The thoughts of doom and fear are very real at first. I am going for my 3 rd chemo tomorrow after it transpired things wernt quite as straight forward as first though.  However, I am much more positive now and I think that only starts happening when you start yr journey with answers and a plan for yr treatment.

    yes definitely think about today, one day at a time or you wil go crazy thinking what ifs!

    It will all fall into place over the next few weeks and months. Treatments have evolved for breast cancer at an amazing pace and because if this many more people have very good outcomes so I know it is difficult and will be a rollacoaster journey but you will get there.

     

    sending you a virtual hug take care, here if there is anything I can help with xxx

     

    love Kiera xx

  • Kiera 

    Thankyou I've gone through every emotion today and it's because I'm dealing with the great unknown. I think when we're grasping for reassurance and explanations, we sometimes apply unfounded logic or resort to Dr Google which is never a good idea!

    Its been a hugely overwhelming and terrifying day but in contrast, I've never felt more loved and supported. 
     

    I'm so grateful for your reply and I really wish you a positive outcome on your journey also. Good luck with your chemo and thankyou for reaching out  

    Sarah xxx

  • Your welcome, things will settle in time and your worst thoughts will settle too.

    Thank you

     

    love Andrea xx