For months now I have had shoulder and collar bone aches and pains and thought nothing of it. Put it down to working from home and day to day stuff. A few weeks ago I noticed under my arm pit was a bit puffy. Went to the doctors on Monday, she said she thought it was muscular then felt my breast and said there is a lump. I'm now waiting for an appointment unde there 2 week referral thing. I can't eat, I can't function, I can't work or focus. I have two young children and am getting married in 6 weeks time. I have naturally looked on this site and am beside myself as things I had dismissed all add up now. My partner says cancel the wedding as I may need treatment and we won't enjoy it as we would have. I feel sick to the stomach. I just want to see someone today. We have private Heath care but if I go there am I not in the nhs system any more? I just don't know what to do.