Hi im just looking for support. My mum has been diagnosed with grade 4 glioblastoma cancer. She's 73. Only 5 weeks ago she was her normal self, I visited her that day and in the evening I got a call from my dad in a panic, my mum had collapsed and was in a bad way. We all thought it was a stroke at 1st. But after being examined we were told she had a siezure, had fractured her arm during the siezure and a scan had showed a build up of fluid and a mass on her brain. At that time she couldnt speak properly, all her words were coming out wrong, she was very confused. She had surgery a biopsy and the results maybe two weeks later. The nurse and my mum who was a lot better with her speach by then was sounding optimistic and we were praying it would be benign. But it wasn't. A huge shock, to find out the news. The nurse kept saying its treatable but not curable Now since then, my mum had consultation with neuro dr. My mum doesn't want to know how long she's got left. By the way she has shown amazing strength positivity and really appreciating every little moment. She says she see colours as more vivid, music more beautiful. She's also giving her sentimental jewelry to me and two of my sisters. I have 3 sisters, 1 doesn't have any contact with any of us even though she's been told about my mum, she wants no contact. Another sister started off involved but she has been absolutely awful to myself and my younger sister, then she's cut herself off. So it's only me my dad and my youngest sister who doesn't live nearby so can only visit once a fortnight. I am finding it very stressfull, very emotional and dealing with depression and anxiety two kids im struggling to keep being strong. I want to help my mum but I feel under a lot of pressure, my dad doesn't cope with stress gets very angry and stressy at the slightest thing and he also has copd. My mum is due to start treatment on monday. The Macmillan nurse has adviced me that my mum might live up to 12 months but it's an aggressive fast growing cancer and it could grow through treatment, so it all depends on treatment etc. I am still in shock, I feel angry, heartbroken and trying to enjoy every moment with my mum as its all the more precious. If I try to talk to anyone I get told to stay strong and they are sympathetic but I dont feel strong. It's just all happened really fast and a lot to deal with
