Bladder cancer??

Sorry if this is inappropriate but i'm really scared. Ive had blood in my urine sometimes visible (since Aug 20), mostly not but its always shows on the urine dipstick test. No infection ever there. Today i have been told that there is a cluster of cells in my bladder and kidney and the results from urine analysis says atypical cells. I have been referred for ultrasound scan and cystoscopy. Does anyone know if tjhis could be cancer? Ive no one to talk to and im so so afraid. I am 43 mother of 4.

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