I’ve got the most beautiful kindest strongest fun loved life friend she has Had cancer for 3 years we had thought that she had beat it but secondary cancer hit this year since June I’ve seen her out less and less and losing weight bit by bit her confidence being chipped away,from June after we had an amazing girly holiday together she has felt tired so out less, she had three more rounds of chemo which made her sick and tired and weak, we are now in October and she is 47, she’s been in hospital twice in the last 6weeks and hardly eats if she does her stomach is in pain she feels sick and says she wants to burp but she can’t,she went to recent appointment they said now she’s to weak to have chemotherapy and has weeks to live she never has suffered with anxiety but waking up panicked and upset her mum who’s with her calms her and she’s taking antidepressants to help her cope, as a best friend and the only friend she is seeing watching her go down this road is heartbreaking I wish I had a magic wand I’m trying very hard not to fall apart in front of her and talk about life more than death but in the background I’m saying I will miss you terribly thinking about her day and night feel her pain and anxiety but want to make her laugh but who knows how long she will be here for but I’m gonna try my hardest to make her happy in the next couple of weeks/months.
