Are we near the end?

Hi everyone, 

a bit of a morbid question but my thoughts are all over the place at the moment. My dad was diagnosed with a Secondary brain tumour 7 months ago the primary is possibly lung cancer but they are unable to tell as he's too I'll for the scans. at the time he was given only short months to live and again in April we were told around a month. He's been so strong and keeps on going but I now feel like I've lost him while he's still here. 
he's only 59 but has been bed bound for 3 months, can no longer use his right side, hasn't been able to speak for around a month and his skin is cold to touch. He sleeps a lot more now and often falls asleep while your talking to him. He's also only eating soft foods and one meal a day. This has been the case for the last 2 weeks. 
As much as I can't bare to loose him seeing my dad this way is torture and I imagine it his for him too as I feel like even though he's confused a lot he must feel trapped. 
Does anyone have any experience of similar circumstances? And how long can this last. I can't help but feel like we are near the end and sometimes that brings me relief and then I feel guilty. It's such a horrible situation

  • Hello and first of all may I say how sorry I am about your Dad and what you are all going through.  You have asked for an honest answer and here it is:  Yes, your Dad's time is very near............I know this because I nursed my own Mother through cancer and I have also lost many friends and family members to this disease, so I know the signs that the end is approaching.  Please try not to feel guilty that you are feeling relief, because the truth is, you Love your Dad and you want his suffering to come to an end.........it is the most normal thing in the world.  Also please remember that it takes MORE Love to let someone go who you know feels trapped than it does to want to hold on to them.  Also, let your Dad know how much you Love him while there is still time...........one of my biggest regrets is that I never told my dying mother how much I loved her.  I hope I have not been too blunt, but you deserve to know the truth and I am sure you don't want platitudes and sugar-coating, once again, so sorry for what is happening to you, Violet, x

  • Hi Violet 

    Thank you so much for your response. And it's not blunt at all it's exactly what I needed to hear. Can I ask if this is something that goes on for weeks or months in your experience? 
    I am so sorry you have had to see this with several people close to you. It is so hard to deal with and all the emotions that come with it. 
    I see dad every other day at the moment as I live further away, but I have recently taken time off work as I felt we were getting to the end and I may need to be around more x

  • Hi.  First of all, I can only speak from personal experience, because no-one can ever give an exact prediction on such things, but from the amount of times I have seen my loved ones die from this disease, by the time they had reached the condition that your Dad is now in, it was a matter of a couple of weeks........maybe even just a few days.  I am so sorry for you, because I know exactly how you are feeling, but I would say that your Dad is very close to the end of his life.  Violet, x

  • Thank you so much for your response, I really appreciate it. I know it's so hard to tell and as I said above the professionals have gotten it wrong many times before. It's just good to know what others have experienced x

  • You are welcome, and I truly wish you well.  Once again, so sorry for what you are going through, Violet x