Hi rach it is pretty common to get angry or very emotional alot come to the forum to have a good rant and let off steam your welcome any time you feel you need "to talk" or expel a little steam, alot find coming on here helps write what you feel,. Best wishes.

Billy 

Hello sweetie - the news your family has had is awful absolutely awful. Angry? Of course you are & why shouldn't you be? It's such a cruel & unfair illness & doesn't care at all about who it affects. I think it's human nature to want to fight back when someone we love is hurting physically & emotionally but this isn't something, sadly, that you can fight when your mum has had the diagnosis she has had. I suspect part of what you're feeling is frustration at not being able to do anything. It's disempowering to feel useless & not having control over something that impacts us so much DOES make us angry, so, so angry.

If this makes sense to you, it might help you to understand why you are finding it so difficult to keep your anger under control. Understanding where our emotions come from/why they are there is the first step in managing them. You may stay angry for quite some time but it's very important for your own sake that you begin to manage it otherwise your health will suffer & you can't afford for that to happen because you need your strength to help your mum.

In some times of crisis in my life I've put pen to paper & written down all my thoughts & feelings & it helps to get things 'out'. It's something just for you - rage there all you need to & it may help you to be less angry with the world & people around you.

As Billygoat says vent & rage here as much as you need to but try to be a bit kind to yourself & understand what's happening to you is normal. Take care x