Hello and thank you for such comforting and beautiful words.

Always fearing the unknown like you said is so scary and unnerving and although I am desparately trying to be positive it is so difficult but I am sure you understand.

I look at my girls face and watch her googling info and then self diagnosing which makes it worse.

How are you now if you don't mind me asking please? I hope you are in a good place and you are not alone, 

lots of love Ste & Jules xx

Hi,Ste and Jules,yes I am in a good place now,I have to see my consultant every three months now,it was every two weeks at first so that's good I have three injections every week which district nurse does for me, it's not curable but controllable,that's good enough for me, I am not alone ,I am seventy and have a lovely husband and my son lives in London and visits often, I am happy but would not like to go back to that dark place five years ago,oh nearly forgot I have rescue dog buddy who we love dearly,please tell jules not google,I did and I then suffered depression and anxiety which I am still trying to control.If you would like to speak again please do,and I really do believe this is just a hiccup that's sent to us all at sometime,but remember it's how we deal with it that counts,I will keep you all in my thoughts and please just speak to me anytime even if it's just to rant about this bloody cancer,much love to you all,keep in touch Chris xx

Hello again Chris,

sorry for my delay in replying to yourself. 

You sound a very strong and positive person and having a strong family around is a massive bonus for you.

We are going to the hospital tomorrow for a pre-op assessment so will hopefully know more tomorrow.

Once again thank you for your kind words.Good luck with your treatment,keep in touch,

lots of love Ste & Jules xx

Ah Chris thank you again for thinking of us. 

I understand the anxiety and depression entirely as I have had to get some pills off the doc for anxiety and sleeping. It's truly awful.How did your husband cope with all this please?

I am physically fit & strong and thought I had the mental strength but this has taught me that I am weak,very weak. 

I will of course let you know as soon as we have been tomorrow. God bless, you are a beautiful person.

love Ste & Jules xx

Hello Ste. Hope you don't me joining in with a few words.  People here talk about breaking the whole thing down into manageable chunks - as opposed to contemplating a fast forward with awful results.Concentrate on the next thing that will happen, in your fiancee's case this will be her surgery and chemo.  So don't go any further forward than that for now.

You also need to take care of yourself in order to help your lovely lady.  I don't know how much support you are getting from your family and friends but it might help you to ring MacMillan Cancer Support (Freefone 0808 808 0000) who I understand are very knowledgeable and helpful to friends and family of people who have been diagnosed with cancer.  Then you will always have someone to chat to if you are having a little crisis.  And keep talking to the good people on this website so you don't get yourself into a bad state.  Best wishes.

Hi Ste and Jules, I honestly don,t know how hubby has coped with me and mood swings,he was also carer for father in law who died aged 100 two years ago,but he's has coped he said we are in this together and will take each step at a time,he also had to have shoulder and hip replacement meanwhile.Anyway enough of me and my woes ,just step bravely in tomorrow and you will both be in my thoughts,god bless love Chris xx

Hi forgot to say I am from Stockport but now live in Skipton so remember us northerners are made of stern stuff,so we mustn,t let the side down much love take care Chris   Xx

Hi Ste and Jules,may I ask how you both are Chris xx