Hi everyone - I was the type to do alot of googling prior to my diagnosis and came across this forum- never did I think I would be posting here myself.
Found a lump about 2 months ago and GP and several other doctors believed it was a fibroaedenoma (or however its spelt) by feeling it. Was eventually referred for an ultrasound (after my referral being rejected due to my age and low risk factors) and then was told I need a biopsy. I am a very health paranoid person but I still got myself to believe it was just going to be a fibroaedenoma! Had a follow up consultation yesterday as someone had cancelled their appointment last minute. I even told my dad he didnt have to come in with me as I was so sure it was just going to be normal results.
Next thing I know the dr is telling me the lump looked very suspicious and it is actually a 4cm cancerous lump.
I cried alot and tried to absorb most of what was being said. It literally felt like a bad dream that I was waiting to wake up from. The doctor and nurses all said they weren't expecting it to be anything abnormal!
To add to this I have a heart condition (hypertrophic cardiomyopathy) and have an ICD in place. I generally dont have symptoms from my heart and live a normal feeling life but I worry so much if the treatment clashes with my heart medications or that my body wont be able to handle it.
Have only told close family and my boyfriend/ 1 close friend. I dread telling loved ones about this- I feel its almost worse than dealing with it yourself. I am due to have a CT scan next week to see if it has spread then the likely plan is chemo to shrink the lump, surgery and then radio.
I am hoping so much it hasn't spread anywhere - I dont know how I will be able to cope with that. I feel I will have a clearer head once I know the plan of action but I guess it's one day at a time!
