I lost my mom to non-hodgkins lymphoma cancer just over a year ago. This may sound awful but it's almost like my mother never existed. I am having trouble remembering how she was, things we did, good memories etc... somedays I go through the whole day and don't think of her at all. This I feel ashamed about but cannot deny it, this is very surprising to me as I loved my mother very much and we were very close. It's almost like my mind has created a wall to her passing because it's in self protection mode. This is very frustrating for me as I want to remember how she was and want to never forget her.
Has this happened to anyone else? what did you do about it? Is it normal?