Hi Beth, i'm feeling exactly the same as you at the moment I'm 41, and i found a large lump in my right breast and had my breast clinic appointment today. I had a mammogram of both breasts, an ultrasound of both breast and right armpit. I aslo had a biopsy of the lump and node in the armpit.
The waiting is torture isn't it??!!!!
I have an appointment to get the biopsy result on 23 Feb which is going to feel like forever. I have also been refered for an MRI scan because they said they couldn't measure the size of it.
I know people say most lumps are not cancerous, but it's difficult to not let your mind run riot. I have been going over and over what they said to me today, and analyzing every little sentence, tone of voice they used and their body language.
The nurse doing the scan went to get the consultant, she then did the scan again, the nurse couldn't get the needle in the lump to get a sample, so the consultant had to do it. I kept hearing them saying it was large and 'hard as rock'
The consultant leaned in close towards me and rubbed my arm while she said 'i'm affraid there's a lump', i felt like saying 'i know there is, that's why i'm here'. I don't know if it was her way of saying it's a cancerous lump, without actually saying it. Then the last nurse i saw just looked sad when she spoke to me, and when i got up to leave the room she also rubbed my arm and looked at me with a certain 'look'.
When are you getting your biopsy results?
I thought they could tell just from a mammogram and ultrasound scan as well, I got the feeling they knew, but didn't want to say until after the biopsy results. It's going to be a bloody horrid 2 weeks
But you're not alone, i'm going through exactly the same, and i'm sure there are lots of others out there as well xx