I had advanced stage 3 breast cancer diagnosed in July 20, I had a mastectomy, full node clearance, six months of chemo, radiotherapy and have just finished immunotherapy. I am still on tamoxifen, zolodex. I am back working full time in a high pressure job, have two young kids and no family support network nearby. Mostly throughout this whole thing I have been so strong, and take a kick *** attitude to it all.
Two weeks ago I saw my consultant as I have pain and swelling under my arm and am now waiting for a scan to see if we are back to square one.
This time, I am scared, terrified even, that it has come back. I'm trying to hold my **** together, but its hard. Maybe because my consultant told me it WILL be back at somepoint Or maybe because I know what to expect now.
Either way, I am scared, frickin knackered, I hurt continually and am struggling with early menopause, tiredness etc etc. I'm feeling that Im struggling.
I just asked my husband for a little more emotional support, to be told that 'he's drained...'completely drained' after the past year. I get that it affects everyone, and that me having had cancer isnt a trump card, but I do feel so hurt and disappointed that he geneuinely thinks this is an ok response. I would love to be 'normal life tired' again,
This is a theme (when i went through radio he expected me to take our kids with me ( we dont live in england) as it would be too hard for him to have them and work).
Am I being completely unreasonable? Has anyone else had this who can advise? Thanks x