Hi,

i am feeling low at the moment. I was diagnosed in 2016 with Follcilsr Lymphoma . I was monitored until April 2018 when I underwent 6 rounds of chemo. I was on a trial drug Obinatuzamab plus CVP which worked well. I was fortunate to not .have many side effects and remained strong. The cancer is in Full Metabolic remission and I am now half way through 2 years of maintenance treatment of just Obinatuzamab. I am really struggling now to stay positive. I live in fear now of it returning which will happen I know as it’s incurable. When it went into remission i just didn’t feel elated like I think I should have. I am moody now at home. My husband is very understanding and caring but I now find I feel insecure in my relationship. He is younger than me and it really hasn’t ever been a problem but I can’t imagine now for one moment why he would want to stay with me. All sorts of thoughts go through my head. When he talks to female work colleagues I get anxious and upset. One particular girl has anxiety issues and he talks to her as he has suffered depression in the past and it’s making me very sad. He hasn’t hidden it from me but she keeps messaging him constantly. I spoke to him last night and he said he won’t chat with her anymore but I have an overwhelming sadness at the moment. It feels like all my cancer concerns have come to a head and I’m in floods of tears. Just don’t know what to do