So yesterday morning, I found a lump in my breast. I managed to get an appointment with my GP two hours later, but honestly, as someone in their 20s, the last words I expected to hear coming out of the doctor's mouth were "suspected cancer". Long story short, I have an urgent appointment at a Breast Clinic next Tuesday.

I'm a person who's used to dealing with problems, so I'm no stranger to maintaining my equilibrium in stressful situations, but right now, I am sitting awake on my laptop at 1am because I just feel like I'm barely holding myself together, and the threatening downpour of tears seem like they will consume me in a flood of fear, and despair. 

I'm actually taking part in the 'Shine Night Walk' in London this weekend, and ironically this time 24 hours ago, my biggest concern was getting a suspected stress fracture/shin splint in my leg healed adequately before Saturday - even if I just have to walk.

All I'd like to be able to do, is maintain some form of calm and focus for this Saturday; as well as for the actual appointment on Tuesday. If anyone could offer some advice, I would be truly grateful. I don't have family who care about me, so I just feel very, very alone right now.