Hi Dizzle, nice to meet you
I'm glad you are a bit calmer now and that you are processing that as a good thing So good that your partner is also happy! Good luck with everything.
Meanwhile, I opened up with several friends this weekend and I could vent with some, and now other friends want to go for a coffee with me. I also saw some of them at my birthday party which was a nice moment of happyness, in all this messy sadness.
my boyfriend however is still sad. He also had friends coming over to see him on Saturday, but he is so week and so hopeless. You see, before he could make trips and walks, he was a very active person, he loved going to concerts and festivals, he loved eating pizza and junk food, and now he spends a lot of time sleeping, and has to eat very healthily because he is lactose and gluten intolerant... it seems that nothing can cheer him up, and I kinda get it, even if I'm with friends at the end of the day our problems never go away.
I don't know if there's anything I can do to cheer someone that received a terminal diagnosis and almost doesn't leave the house. He's 43 and because he's so young that may be even harder...
This may sound terrible to say, but is hard to watch him. I can only spend time with him on weekends because we live in different cities. I used to use the weekends to recuperate from the work week, but now I may use the work week to be revitalized from the weekends that I visit my boyfriend... He's taking chemo pills now, I don't know if they will make him feel better or less pain... i don't know what to expect.
But well, I know, I know, I'll keep being strong as I can, and with the best spirit despite the circunstances.
Take care everybody*