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Terrified i may have breast cancer

11 Jul 2018 22:03

Well for the past 4 years I have been getting yearly mammograms due to my mum having breast cancer at 43 yo. She had a mastectomy and then called back to have her other breast removed due to her having a 95% chance of reoccurring and also a full hysterectomy as they found a huge benign tumour that had also destroyed one of her kidneys.

I was referred for tests to be on the safe side but last year they decided to stop them as they said I should be ok! God knows why they just decided this they just said no more appointments would be arranged.

Well, 2 months ago I found a painful lump and left if for another month to see if it would disappear. It didn't so I went to my gp.  On checking she said it felt like a cyst especially with it being painful.  She also found another 5 spread across both breasts but said I have lumpy breasts so no wonder I didn't know they were there. She asked me to return in another 3 weeks to check it again which I did and she told me they were still there and she looked quite concerned so has referred me to the breast clinic for an appointment which I have tomorrow.

I am so scared, I am presuming it's the worst and having anxiety attacks daily.  I am 35 years old with 2 children aged 14 and 5 and am just imagining what would happen to them if I have cancer.  I feel like I'm going insane and just needed somewhere to vent all this as I feel I'm driving my partner insane.  

Could I actually be that lucky to have a load of cysts that are not cancerous? It feels like the odds are against me and I'm not going to be as lucky as my mum was to beat it.

Re: Terrified i may have breast cancer

11 Jul 2018 22:33 in response to MoJo_JoJo

Hi there ... like you I had lumpy breasts and over the years my first 4 call backs turned out fine ... I would go through all the what ifs and my mind wouldn't give me a brake from thinking the worse ... all that time and all that worry for nothing ... as most lumpy boob call backs are o.k 

My 5th call back was positive ... but this lump felt different ... and the worse time for me is that first part of waiting ... now a year down the line, and a mastectomy later ... I'm still standing ... there's lots of breast cancer lasses on here ... treatments are getting better ... 

So fingers crossed for good outcome ... try to keep as busy as poss as hard as that is ... the odds are on your side so hold on in there ... Chrissie x