Wow! We do seem very similar in everything! Down to the last T!
my cancer scare turned out to be a fibroadenoma. This one is different too, pea size right under the areola next to my nipple, really hoping it has something to do with the piercing I had done 7 months ago, buts it's only popped up since 4 weeks ago so I'm not holding out much hope. It's painless, round and soft to firmish I think?
I am the same from since I can remember I have always been a worrier, from little things when I was a teenager, silly really, thinking I had appendicitis(actually it was my periods starting) to thinking I'm having a heart attack(panic attack) but these last 4 years have all been revolved around cancer! Maybe it's because there's so much of it in the world, always hearing of it and it's a worry that I may have it! I also drive my family and friends mad, I have had to take a step back from constant messaging and calling them but they have been very supportive. Oh I know how you feel, I'm always brushing off my eldest with "Yh u will be fine you have just pulled a muscle" or "your leg isn't going to fall off" lol. But deep down I worry about them just as much as myself, my middle child I recently had a lump checked out on his neck, just a lymph node, my eldest I thought had a water infection or kidney infection, turned out he was just having too much fun on the PlayStation and holding his wee in! I'm always fretting over stuff, even booked my partner a doctors appointment recently for his moles which again turned out fine! But the anxiety takes over and I start to think my luck will run out and this is it, I will have the horrible diagnosis. It's a vicious cycle!
I was just like you, worried about mentioning anything to my doctor because I always go in guns blazing, head spinning and freaking out, but this time I made a pact with myself that I would not do that. So when I had the phone call I just simply said, " I have found a lump" as calm as I possibly could and instead of reeling off all my symptoms I let the doctor ask me the questions and within a minute he referred me straight to the breast clinic, no bones about it. I did have a sudden wave of fear come over me and again when I got the appointment through the fear and anxiety hit again, but this last week I have been trying so hard to not make it a priority but to just put it to the back of my mind. Please mention this lump to your doctor, it could be absolutely nothing again, but it's best to get checked out.
how bizarre that you were prescribed sertraline and did not take them.... and for exactly the same reason as me... I think I read somewhere small risk of pancreatic cancer and that was it I was like nope not taking them. My family were going crazy that I begged for help but refuse to take the medication. I tried cbt for second time beginning of the year but with the kids off from school I couldn't concentrate. So I stopped. Keep going with it, it might make a difference. It is very draining, I know the feeling too well.
That's ok! Thankyou hun, me too! Xx
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will be very grateful so I can get some sleep tonight x