It’s utter torment isn’t it. Just thoughts going over and over in our heads. Your mum was most likely unconscious in the ambulance and Her last awareness and memory would have been in the comfort of her home I’m sure.
Funeral for mum is this Thursday I’m doing the Eulogy. We have chosen her favourite songs. She is wearing what she wore on her 70th back in April. Mum never discussed her funeral. She was so afraid of death. She is being cremated. Dad is taking some of her ashes and I’m taking some to scatter near me at a waterfall here in Cornwall .