Hi, I'm Becky and i'm 23. I've posted here a few times however have just recently plucked up the courage to go and get my moles checked. I have many moles, all different shapes, sizes colours etc. The scary thing is, I took no notice of my skin for years when i was around 15-21 and would use sunbeds and loved going on holiday and getting a tan. However, in the last few years i have realised just how many i have that i've never noticed before and i am terrified. This summer i barely dared go out in the sun. I don't have particularly fair skin and tan quite dark in the sun but for some reason have about 50 moles around my body.
Today i went to see my GP, however it was impossible for her to look at all of them. She clearly stated that I have a lot of moles of all diferent shapes and sizes so it is possible that even though some may appear obscure, they're normal. ( i think it's their job to be reassuring)
She picked up on one on my neck she thought looked a bit odd becasue it has little dots inside and isn't completely round. It's pretty flat and is positioned between the creases in my neck so spends most of its life creased (if you get me). It's quite dark and it's now i've fully took notice of it, it doesn't look nice! I don't even remeber it been there or looking so dark. It like a round dark flat freckle. She reassured me she thought it was nothing but because i couldn't tell her how long it had been there she reffered me to a dermatologist. This has terrified me as i think it's only been there around a year or 2 and i know new moles are a huge warning sign of Melanoma. I have so many moles that i couldnt tell you whether they have been there forever or not.
I've already had my apt through for the dematologist which is good news but i'm so scared now it feels real. She said they will look at all my moles which i guess is quite reassuring in a way as i dont want to leave knowing they havent looked at everything.
Is it normal to develop moles in your 20's? This seems to be when many of mine have popped up. The worrying thing is that many are dark, round, big and some raised but the GP did have a good look at my arms, back and chest and she said none look abnormal.
I have really bad healthy anxiety and this worry has been weighing me down for years from my past sunbed use. Has anyone been in my situation before? I'm so scared. I keep thinking i have caused this myself and people are going to say 'i told you so' if it is bad news. The scary thing is, almost every girl i know regualrly uses sunbeds several times and week and now it makes me feel physically sick when i see them.
Any reassurence about what to expect will be helpful!!
Thanks, Becky xxx
