So sorry to read the pain in your words. I too lost my mum suddenly Feb 22 2019, she had gone in hospital for a chest infection, 2 weeks later I had to say my goodbyes as we turned the machines off. I can see that you took strength from your family and am hoping my two girls (9,12) will help me find strength like you.

i can’t cope with the emptiness, I am an only child and dad died ten years ago, this feeling I am left with is unbearable. It was lung cancer that took my mum and none of us knew. I want to ask if you have found some way to cope you could share? Did you seek counselling? 

I am at a loss, I am so angry that I didn’t see the signs sooner. Grief is the loudest silence I have ever heard. Xx